The Black Hole

IT was the demon in her
And the Satan in her stars
The evil of all hell and earth
And of the heavens afar.

It was within a you and me
And in the deepest lake and sea
The fire that shook the highest peak
All sages of whom did once speak.

It was a formless silhouette
That rose and faded into thin air
An apparition, a ghost-an illuminating light
Yet not visible to the naked eye.




IT was the conqueror of all kings
Of every man, woman and child
Not bounded by forces of any dimension
The true master of death and time.

For it was death-and time-and life
The paramount immortal essence
The driving force of past and present
The keeper of fates and hence...

It was the demon in her
And yet an inspiration
The passion of her mind
And her heart's sensation.




IT was the seed of desire
From which fueled every fire
From which grew endless cycles
From which rose lovers-rivals.

From which sprang every storm
The reason for every calm
From which stemmed wish and want
All dreary illusions that haunt...

The strange paradox being
'Tis but the only truth
The wisdom of all ages, with
The gleaming beauty of youth.

The Mirage

And it seems to me, that the struggles of life are infinite. Not only infinite, but pointless. The fight to prove your mettle. Don't you see.. it's a trap!
Oh I am sorry, did I hurt your wounds of those tough times? I didn't mean to belittle you, or your gallery of valor. But you would never believe me, for it always seems worthy. After all, history remembers the victors.
I apologize again to be the one to break this illusion of yours. If you think you've annihilated all your pain with one blow of victory, know that it's a bait. Soon you will realize that there's another battle waiting. The real war, is never over.
Suffering is continuous and never ending.

If life was a voyage to a far off land, then each struggle would be a ripple in the sea.
As your boat floats forward with fancy force, though not swiftly, the ripples follow.
You see the waves, enormous - uniform - seamless, trying to overpower you with the winds on their side. They reach for infinity, as far as the eye can see - crawling towards the horizon, where the sun of hope is slowly drowning. You think you can count them, perhaps you try, but it's useless, they are too many.

And so this was life. Ripples of hardships, no matter how fast you move, these waves of struggle never end, keep following. And yet, the sea, the sunsets, the sky and it's stars and all of these beautiful things unconquerable by man, become the only escape from the sea sickness... somehow making you feel like there's some minuscule joy even in conquering a single wave. Awakening a false hope that the voyage would finally end, that there was a destination - an island, where a treasure of gold was waiting to be found. That there was a point to this utter madness... that life itself, held some meaning. Oh, how nature tricks us into becoming pirates, uncanny and remarkable.

The Life Cycle of the Ordinary Homo Sapien

You were young and restless
Passionate and reckless
Naive and emotionally high
In pursuit of ecstasy
To love and live
And breathe and die
And experience intimacy
Of knitted hearts
And teared apart
Of stitches and wounds
And scars and pain
And sadness and ends;

And beginnings and gain
And forgetting losses
Of trusting again
Plunging out into eternity
Into a world of fantasy
And time and again
Those shocks
Trying to bring you back
To where you perhaps belong
When the Murphy's Law decide's to have its way
And you lie, "It's gonna be okay".

HUNGER

Twice every year, through the festival of Navratri, my mother would fast for seven days. On the eighth day, she'd make a wonderful feast to serve innocent, little gluttons worshipped as Goddesses. When I was nine, I accepted my sister's challenge to keep a fast for a day in pursuit of emulating my mother secretly. It was hard. Harder than I had imagined. That day, I ate an awful lot. I ate more than I would on a normal day. Well in  my defence, the legitimate fasting food was delicious! That day, I also realized what Hunger felt like.

 Hunger was an amusing little feeling. A rather strange stimulus I must say. It's like it has a mind of its own. It got hold of me in peculiar situations, only to make them more awkward. Awkward enough to not be easily forgotten. Like the rumbling sound my intestines unintentionally made in that solemn lecture of economics. Like the time I couldn't study for my exam the entire night due to paucity of  midnight snacks. Like the night there was no night mess.

Well... Hunger. Strikes. Hard.

Hunger, was the emotion felt, when I was so broke.. even poha was out of my league. Hunger, was what reminded me of home, more often than anything else... every afternoon and night, when mess food was gulped down. Mother, I miss the love you added to food. An ingredient they don't ever serve (although they don't serve kadhai paneer either) but I hope to savour the magic your hands create really soon again.

We fought a callous war, Hunger and I. It played the enemy, and I, the brave knight. Every day was a new battle. Every day I would strive to reach the mess and defeat Hunger. Lethargy and Sleep, Hunger's allies would sometimes get the best of me. I did lose hope occasionally, but I never surrendered. Never gave in to egg, or chicken or even gravy for that matter. 

But what about the world fighting the same war?

We are so proud of the great evolution of human beings: we've defeated Leprosy and Small Pox, Plague and Cholera, even man made demons like Environmental Pollution... and yet, every 10 seconds, Hunger kills a child. I keep reminding Hunger that defeat is inevitable for the wrong. That one day things would change. And that any morsel of food, no matter what the country that wheat grew in, the colour of the tiffin box, the name of the restaurant or the company that produced the tinned can, every morsel of food had what it took to fight Hunger.

I have never been able to go without food for twelve hours, although I've tried fasting a lot of times. I wonder how women do that on karva chauth and other festivals for an entire day. I wonder how one-ninth of the world population manages to do that every single day of their lives.

Indeed, Hunger has had its victories in the past and famines are an incorruptible truth that has smeared our history; but now, each one us must stand to let history not repeat itself, to fight battles for those who are not so tough as yet.

Well this is me signing off, the dinner's waiting. I'm going to eat a whole plate of food and crib about the bad taste like I do everyday, and so will you. I know. But before you begin eating your next meal, your next morsel, just think about the people out there who won't have one. 

Just saying, there's no harm in feeling thankful :)

To start with...

WARNING: To the mature reader expecting some sense out of what he is about to read, to the kid who's hoping for a 'moral of the story' at the end, to the critic who's on a roll trying to break down this piece into pieces that are logical but no more reconcilable: Get the hell out, it is not the right place for you, these are not the words you'd  wanna read: and I, my dear, am not the blossoming novelist, poet, playwright or whoever it is you are looking for.

This is a general place, for the common hu-man. This place here, is like an Indian bazaar of the degraded kind - a typical street market where you find the second hand stuff more often than the branded. It's chaotic, bustling, filthy and not a place you will easily forget. The only luxury this place provides you is that you can bargain. There is something for everyone here though-you may take what you like, and just leave behind everything else. The charge is nominal, a quarter of your time.

This is a place, for everyday nuisances to be told in a manner that is fancy, and yet close to reality. Interesting enough? Read on, dear reader.

This is as much my journey as it is yours... for I write as you read, I express as you feel and I grow as you experience. I am not too sure myself what I am up to here, but that's the point right? Exploring yourself... that's what I intend to do.  It's a complex world for me and this is my little effort to figure it out, and I'd be more than glad if it anyhow helps you on your path of self-figuring 'the tough to comprehend' and 'the too twisted to be understood' parts you see in your world.

Let's see where we go with this...